"Why Don't You Write Again?" and Internet Anxiety

"Why don't you write again?" was the questions I got times this year. It came first from Dad, the loyal reader of my blog, mom, and it came from friends too. I could blame the never-ending office work and my time management skills but to be frank, firstly, it's because I'm too depending on my writing mood. I could have a thousand words on my mind if I'm in the mood, but most of the time it's not on the situation where I could write it down and when I got the time to, suddenly I'm on a writer's block  I made a lot of excuses. On the other side, sometimes I got too overwhelmed and it makes so hard for me to write it all down.

Another reason is something that has been on my mind lately. Talking about the internet, it is a place where everyone can have access to. It could be anyone from the job recruiter, the boss of the company, long lost friend, distance family, friends who said that they're your friend but they're talking about you at the back, the friends of someone you have a problem with or anybody else in the world - which you don't know that they exist.

I was once writing my personal stories and I thought nobody would read cos I didn't tell everyone the link and I thought if some people knew that it's personal, they would understand and got over it- what I'd do to others' personal posts. Turned out people read, shared links and talked about it but never said it to my face and asked me. I once disappoint someone because of my post too. Hence that gave me a lesson to be more cautious about what I share on the internet.

because what stays on the internet stays forever.

Living in the past

Note: Bear in my mind this post was supposed to be posted on Monday (18/06/2018) but then things happened lol.

I was scrolling through Sonia Eryka’s blog yesterday morning on my iPad while listening to Taio Cruz’s Dynamite on Spotify. I wasn’t aware that it was Sunday morning 'till my sister told me that tomorrow (which is today) Dad’s gonna be home so we’ll pick him up at the airport. I was confused because I thought Monday was still in a few days till I checked on my phone it was really Sunday. What bumped me was; Sunday morning, still in my pajamas scrolling through fashion blogs and oh God, this was literally my kind of Sunday morning when I was teen (ugh, hate to admit).

Two Things

credit to Hakim

Although we couldn't manage to visit all, Alhamdulillah some school visits in Semporna, Sabah, went smoothly and we got a very warmth greeting. I didn't expect such welcoming from them, where all the students gather and made a line to welcome us, saying salaam and welcoming us to their school. The students and teachers were very welcome and friendly. Literally, the students were all smiling to us and pay attention to what we were explaining. 

There was this one Maasha Allah speech from our elected President of our club (IIUM UNESCO Club), Bro Ibrahim, that I've taken a note;

There are two things to feed, the brain and the heart.

We feed the brain with knowledge and the heart with Qur'an and Sunnah, and the purpose of our life is actually to feed these two. We should not feed these two with other that it, like materialism and hatred. Feeding the brain and the heart with purposeless and fruitless things during our life is a total waste of time because we only live in this world once and there's an afterlife, the final life.

They also can't go distinctly, the brain and heart need to go altogether. It's because knowledge leads you to the destination, it's knowledge that allows you to be equipped but it's the heart that filled with Qur'an and Sunnah that knows what is good and what is wrong.

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